The Second Time

In August of 2006, Mike and Dryscha attempted IVF for the first time. We found out that they were expecting, and in early October, we found out that they were expecting triplets. Research mode kicked in and it didn't take me long to realize that a triplet pregnancy was very high risk. Since it was not spontaneous, that made it even more high risk.

One evening in October, Jordan came over. I thought it odd and asked her why she wasn't at work. She made a comment about taking the evening off. Later she told me that she was pregnant, but was in the process of loosing the baby. My first thought was how in the world would I deal with her pregnancy along with Dryscha's. I vividly remembered the weeks preceding the birth of Jocelyn. The next day we went for an ultra sound. As the tech moved the wand around, I knew what I was looking for and also knew I didn't see it. Jordan asked and the tech unsympathetically told her that her doctor would give her the results.

It was obvious within the next few days that Jordan would indeed miscarry this little life. Jordan already knew this baby. Had dreams for this baby. Had hopes for this baby. The rest of us did not. It was several months later that I came to the realization that this child would be 'missing' for the rest of our lives. Only by then it was too late.